The good news and the bad news...

Well, I drew you in with the positive title.  Really, for me, no positives to be found now.  Warning, I write how I think, not pretty.
I will not be racing at my first Boston Marathon.  I have shed more tears over this than one would think should be rational but those people don't know what I've put in to this.  The runs in the dark alone (the Dane was injured early on), the runs in the rain/wind/cold, the runs dealing with niggles and trying to rationalize if they are truly just niggles or real issues.  I've run only one marathon (stand-alone, non-ironman......totally different) and training for that (short build up, coming off injury) went as well as could be expected.  I had 15 weeks to go from zero to 26.2 for a Boston qualifier and I accomplished that even though I paced horribly (but learned).  I knew with a longer build up, bigger things (read, better times) could happen for me.  I am a relatively decent runner who has been deep into triathlon world for the past 20 years.  This is not a bad thing but I have not had a lot of run miles in my legs.  Feeling that I haven't bashed my legs for the past couple decades, I could expect to build things up and hold some decent marathon training miles.  I did really well for about 12 weeks.  I am 45 after all and quite frankly, shit happens.  That's what happened to me.  I think the fibula thing started me looking after my body a bit.  Saw a chiro and found that I had a lot of things out of whack, my fibula likely being the worst.  In my aggression to maintain hard-earned fitness, I did some stupid shit in the pool and really fucked my left hammy.  Yes, the one I tore back in '09.  Good news is, I didn't do it running. Bad new is, well, it's hurt.  I may be jogging some by Patriots Day but I will not be racing.  I hold back tears typing this but. as in all things, tomorrow is another day.  I will visit Boston and cheer on my Dane as he lives the adventure I have dreamed about since 12/17/11.  Cheer loudly I will!  And, visit pubs along the way I will!  Hey, I'm lucky, I will get all the gory details about the course without actually experiencing it.  I will, one day.  Bet on it.  I'm already planning my next Boston qualifier.....
Cheers